Who am I?

 Someone who changed my life. No one changed my life. Who am I? My name is Shahira and I am a Muslim. I was born as a Muslim and I shall die as a Muslim. I started wearing the veil when I was just 12. And u noe wat! I did it on my own will. No one forced me to it. I talked my dad into it and he agreed. Why do you ask me that whoever you are? Who changed my life? How can I explain that to you? Will you even understand? My dad told me to go on this website and express my feelings on it. He said I should be heard. How will I be heard wen no one is ready to even listen to me? He even told me to compete for the competition. Right. I win. My ass.  I’m a freaking Muslim and he expects me to win. People call me a terrorist and does he think I even have a chance. At first I just ignored him abt this thing but then something made me change my mind. I noe tht I may not-no wait-I noe tht I Will not win but who ever owns this website, I’d like to tell you NEways. I noe, you might just see the word MUSLIM and be like pass. Oh god y do I even care. This is not some made up story. This is my friggin life were talking abt. Do you even care? I’m sure no one will read this but I’m gonna write it neways. Maybe someday, someone will find it and understand wat I feel

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I’m only 14 and I have the crappiest life ever. I go to an Islamic school, an all girl’s school and I get most of the crap from there. I so badly want to go to England to get away from here but my dad won’t let me. If I wanted I could get a cover name write a story and no doubt I would win. But y should I? I want ppl to accept me for who I am. Which is y I decided to write this to you instead. I’m writing this cuz I noe tht I won’t win and no one will see this. In other words I just wanted to let out everything I had inside. 

I am a Muslim and tht is the biggest sacrifice ever. But I love being a Muslim. I’d rather die than renounce it. I don’t think you understand tht cuz in your eyes I’m a terrorist. Everyday those freaking phony people give their comments and make fun of me. I noe wat ur thinking web owner. Tht ur one of them right? But can u tell me at least one person who stopped their crap and try to see how I feel? But no. I’m still the pathetic one right. Being a 40 year old women and calling a 14 year old a terrorist. Isn’t tht funny? I love being a Muslim no matter how hard you guys try not to make me not like it. I will never change. I love my hijaab, and my robe and I love, love my veil. I love it with all my heart. Can u ppl not respect someone else’s feelings? How am I a terrorist? Just becuz I follow my religion unlike you ppl,  u now call me a terrorist. Do u even noe wat in the bible it says abt u guys.

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In the Qur’an it tells us to cover our hair. It does not force us. If anyone ever tells u tht, then their totally MESSED UP. N   u also noe wat it says in Ur bible. It says to the women to cover their hair. If they don’t, it says to shave their hair off. Lol. Plz at least our religion doesn’t go tht far. Let me show you the difference between a religious Christian and a religious Muslim. Go type in u tube taira banks and crazy religious women. Listen to her then listen to one of Abdullah Waheed’s speech then tell me whose better.  Y do u guys have to make life for us so hard. Y do u guys care so much of how we eat and talk and dress. I mean, have we ever pointed out how you guys dress nakedly and eat pig! No. We have never so wat is Ur guys’ problem. N how am I supposed to be a terrorist wen I’ve never seen or touched a gun or bomb in my life before. Just becuz I cover my face n body, I’m the biggest terrorist. Do you ppl care how I feel. No you don’t. You guys’ r all so selfish. I bet Ur getting mad right now for calling u tht but don’t I really enjoy it wen ppl call me a ninja right? It’s so much fun tht u ppl don’t even see my tears. Is tht how cold hearted u guys’ are. Y is tht just becuz I cover my body ppl make fun of me and call me names. You ppl wear bikinis and go around walking naked so r u automatically called sluts. Huh? Or ppl who have dark skin, r they automatically called Niger’s. Is tht how it is? Tell me Mrs. Bibliofaction lady, am I the one who’s bombing Afghanistan.

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  You call me a terrorist right so am I the one who’s killing innocent children? Making them orphans and leaving women’s’ as widows. So how in the world am I a terrorist? Just becuz I cover my face or becuz I’m a Muslim. Wen I go to America, at the border, I’m scared of u guys. I’m scared tht they might shot me just like tht. They keep my family there for 5 hours. Y? Becuz they think we have drugs or guns or something on us. Hello! Were Muslims. In our religion killing and doing drugs are a major sin. So, if we look so Islamic y would we ever carry those things? I’ve always seen Ur ppl doing it so y r u guys blaming it on us. Can u guys get real. Yes, I noe their r some Muslims who r criminals. But with good there is always bad. And secondly, u tell me this. Wen they go and do the wrongful act, how do they look? Are they wearing turbans, wearing nice long robes and praising god all the way. No! They dress like you. They say your words. They copy Ur style so r we the terrorist. Their acting like you, following Ur footsteps. Did u guys ever think of tht? Am I still the terrorist. U should first answer me! Y do u call me a terrorist. Wat if u were a Muslim. Would u be liked calling tht?

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  Wen I sit in my house now, I wish I could go on to CNN, and tell the world wat Islam is abt.  You guys all have the wrong image of it. Islam is the softest and kindest religion ever. Well, obviously in my own opinion. I’m pretty sure that I’ve passed my limit. I think it’s more than 1,583 words or something like tht but I’m gonna write neways. I noe that u must be rolling Ur eyes but u just proved my point. U guys really don’t care. I had a little hope in my heart tht u might, but I was wrong. U guys don’t at all. So wats this whole drama abt children’s right wen u simply can’t even hear out a teenager.  Is it only wen I walk nakedly tht I will be normal. Tht’s not even allowed in Ur religion so then y do u ppl stop me from covering myself. Did u noe tht covering Ur body isn’t a sin. Islam is the easiest religion, its u ppl who make it so hard for us. I want to tell u more abt my religion, but y should I wen ur not even ready to listen.

   Let me repeat your question again. Who is someone who changed my life? I was wrong in the beginning. Someone did. Only it just wasn’t someone, it was everyone.  All of u guys have made it so hard for me to live. All those times I have cried and grieved, it’s all your guys fault. And u noe wat the sad thing is tht u guys don’t even feel guilt. No u don’t. If u did don’t u think u would at least try to stop it? Is tht wat they teach you in your religion? To hurt ppl.

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In our religion were not allowed to say anything abt anyone’s religion nor break their hearts. I noe wat ur thinking miss. I noe. Ur thinking tht I have been mean to you throughout the whole thing and tht I have offended you so much. And u noe wat. I want to say sorry. I really do cuz in our religion being mean to ur elders is wrong. N not even tht, I feel bad now for cussing at you the whole time. But tell me. If I was soft would u ever listen to me once? Y is tht everyone could say crap abt me and I can’t even express my feelings just once. I hate to say this but I am. I’m crying while I’m writing this. Y? Becuz Ur just gonna read it and click delete. No one is going to see how I feel and nothing will change. U guys will just go on humiliating us while I will ask god to give me patience. I am a MUSLIM and I am proud to be one. I am neither a terrorist nor a fob. I have a voice and I do everything by my own choice. N I chose to live like this, no matter wat it takes.

I noe tht I have wasted Ur time by telling u all this. U probably don’t care.  But I have to tell u this. U may not believe it but it’s the truth. I never wrote this to win. This is my life not a story. I only wrote it cuz, okay I noe I am stupid to hope it, but I just wished tht somebody would read it and understand me. Someone who will believe tht I’m not lying and feel wat I’m going through. Tht this person will try to change of wat I fear. And last but not least I am sorry for sounding cruel and mean.

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Oh n for accusing. Its just tht I’m so fed up and I’m even more tired tht your gonna read it and well...  I guess delete it. It’s okay. I’m use to it. I promise you though just one thing. That I WILL find that one person, just that one, who will be ready to hear me out. Sorry for wasting your time. Good day to you.

 

 

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